I once thought and feared that I might never be able to experience and indulge in being with a woman. Let alone a woman who is on the same page and understands and invokes my desires without me feeling.....
Theres a difference between desiring and being scared of it. And desiring and being excited for it.....
How can I long for something I haven't had yet? Is that how you know.
A woman’s touch. An unknown but familiar feeling. Warm and comforting. Never fully experienced, yet alluring. The desire for feminine company filling my thoughts…..
These emotions, bubbling up inside me. I dont want to face them. Feelings of regret & uncertainty, what have I done? Did I do the right thing? What if? What will the future bring? I miss you, I miss your touch, your smile, your laugh, right now so much. This place feels so lonely, I miss your company. I hope this feeling is only temporary...... I know if we are meant to be, we'll be brought back together eventually. This feeling of freedom, it comes with a price..... part of me wishes to still be together..... but I remember how unhappy I was, & how frustrated and emotionless I made you and pushed you away further. Two completely different energies.... I didn't know how to be with yours anymore..... feeling like I was sinking, deeper & deeper into the floor. I know it was part my fault, I could have been there for you more, helped both our hearts grow bigger wings & soar. I feel sick when I think of specific days I wasn't there for you, let you down, how much disappointment & hurt you felt. I wish I could go back and do it over. But the past is the past.... I hope that by remaining friends I can try make up for those times I wasn't there. Hope I can make our future last to share. You were & are a large part of my life. You'll always be in my heart & I'll forever care.... xo
twisting & turning.... falling falling through the sky.... losing direction, feeling the edge is nearby..... waves of emotion confusing & unfair..... this burden growing heavier, unwanting to share.... getting there gradually... i know it's my own doing.... one day soon hopefully i'll find the direction im meant to be going.....
Let the tears flow Grieving will lead to healing This will not last, in time it will pass Just try not to the think A new path, new direction, new beginning A time of acceptance & discovery Treasure the memories & moments shared Forgive the wrong, learn from the mistakes Time will tell, scars will heal In awhile, will look back and smile Thank you for your love & support I'm sorry for the broken promises There are few good souls in this world.... stay true... Maybe overtime, our paths will cross, I hope they do.....
I once thought and feared that I might never be able to experience and indulge in being with a woman. Let alone a woman who is on the same page and understands and invokes my desires without me feeling.....
Theres a difference between desiring and being scared of it. And desiring and being excited for it.....
Subconscious desire for a woman's touch by fireyfaerie28, journal
Subconscious desire for a woman's touch
How can I long for something I haven't had yet? Is that how you know.
A woman’s touch. An unknown but familiar feeling. Warm and comforting. Never fully experienced, yet alluring. The desire for feminine company filling my thoughts…..
30.6.12
These emotions, bubbling up inside me. I dont want to face them.
Feelings of regret & uncertainty, what have I done? Did I do the right thing?
What if? What will the future bring?
I miss you, I miss your touch, your smile, your laugh, right now so much.
This place feels so lonely, I miss your company.
I hope this feeling is only temporary...... I know if we are meant to be, we'll be brought back together eventually.
This feeling of freedom, it comes with a price..... part of me wishes to still be together..... but I remember how unhappy I was, & how frustrated and emotionless I made you and pushed you away further.
Two comp
27.6.12
twisting & turning.... falling falling through the sky....
losing direction, feeling the edge is nearby.....
waves of emotion confusing & unfair.....
this burden growing heavier, unwanting to share....
getting there gradually... i know it's my own doing....
one day soon hopefully i'll find the direction im meant to be going.....
Letting go..... one of the hardest things to do by fireyfaerie28, journal
Letting go..... one of the hardest things to do
12.6.12 - 12:35am
Let the tears flow
Grieving will lead to healing
This will not last, in time it will pass
Just try not to the think
A new path, new direction, new beginning
A time of acceptance & discovery
Treasure the memories & moments shared
Forgive the wrong, learn from the mistakes
Time will tell, scars will heal
In awhile, will look back and smile
Thank you for your love & support
I'm sorry for the broken promises
There are few good souls in this world.... stay true...
Maybe overtime, our paths will cross, I hope they do.....