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New desires...

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I once thought and feared that I might never be able to experience and indulge in being with a woman. Let alone a woman who is on the same page and understands and invokes my desires without me feeling.....

Theres a difference between desiring and being scared of it. And desiring and being excited for it.....
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How can I long for something I haven't had yet? Is that how you know. 

A woman’s touch. An unknown but familiar feeling. Warm and comforting. Never fully experienced, yet alluring. The desire for feminine company filling my thoughts…..

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.future hope.

2 min read
30.6.12

These emotions, bubbling up inside me. I dont want to face them.
Feelings of regret & uncertainty,  what have I done? Did I do the right thing?
What if? What will the future bring?
I miss you, I miss your touch, your smile, your laugh, right now so much.
This place feels so lonely, I miss your company.
I hope this feeling is only temporary...... I know if we are meant to be, we'll be brought back together eventually.
This feeling of freedom, it comes with a price..... part of me wishes to still be together..... but I remember how unhappy I was, & how frustrated and emotionless I made you and pushed you away further.
Two completely different energies.... I didn't know how to be with yours anymore..... feeling like I was sinking, deeper & deeper into the floor.
I know it was part my fault, I could have been there for you more, helped both our hearts grow bigger wings & soar.
I feel sick when I think of specific days I wasn't there for you, let you down, how much disappointment & hurt you felt. I wish I could go back and do it over.
But the past is the past.... I hope that by remaining friends I can try make up for those times I wasn't there. Hope I can make our future last to share. You were & are a large part of my life. You'll always be in my heart & I'll forever care.... xo
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.lost.

1 min read
27.6.12

twisting & turning.... falling falling through the sky....
losing direction, feeling the edge is nearby.....
waves of emotion confusing & unfair.....
this burden growing heavier, unwanting to share....
getting there gradually... i know it's my own doing....
one day soon hopefully i'll find the direction im meant to be going.....
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12.6.12 - 12:35am

Let the tears flow
Grieving will lead to healing
This will not last, in time it will pass
Just try not to the think
A new path, new direction, new beginning
A time of acceptance & discovery
Treasure the memories & moments shared
Forgive the wrong, learn from the mistakes
Time will tell, scars will heal
In awhile, will look back and smile
Thank you for your love & support
I'm sorry for the broken promises
There are few good souls in this world.... stay true...
Maybe overtime, our paths will cross, I hope they do.....
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